You left me alone when I needed you the most. I waited for you to come so we could talk, yet you came not. I wish you had but wishing changes nothing. Despite your absence in my time of need I was able to make a choice on my own. I had wanted to talk because I needed help. Well, I’ve decided that I’m NOT going to kill myself, but I AM going to drink enough to drop my IQ from 158 to 100, I’ll be normal. The reason I wanted to talk to YOU was because you were the closest thing I’ve ever had to a genuine human connection. I’m dropping my brain because I can’t go on living as I am. I’m tired of having to live amongst people so far below me. I want to be able to make an intellectual connection (I always used to say that my IQ was 135 because I didn’t want anyone to know), and not just an emotional connection (which is what I had deluded myself into believeing we had). I want to not be alone. Why didn’t you show up, just sitting near ANYONE would be nice. I want a companion. Well, anyways, After you didn’t show up it snapped, I don’t need you like I did before. My faith in you is gone. I needed you and you couldn’t be bothered to show up.

I became obsessed with you because o’ many a factor. But the main points were.
1) you were an emotional post that I could lean on when I was sad and scared (which was often).
2) You offered me a human connection when my superior intellect wouldn’t let me form an intellectual relationship.
3) An finally I really did love you.
Now, now your absence has torn what faith in you I had once had lurking in my heart. Your absence tore my feelings from my chest and torn them to shreds. Now, I’ll be drinking until I’m like everyone else.

By the time you see me next I’ll have pickled my brain, that is If I don’t die of alcohol poisoning first (which would be welcome at this point). So long forever from genius Andrew. Have a good life kid.

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“Yes, sex is natural, but so was smallpox.”
-GirlInside